Fear is ok

I cried the other day. I was upset and felt that I wasn’t enough. I always ask God for healing and happiness but I grew angry while looking back and seeing nor feeling growth. I questioned God..I questioned the universe because I hear and see great things happening in everyones life but mine. What was I doing wrong? I believed I was deserving of healing and happiness but it just didn’t seem to be happening ๐Ÿ˜“ I gave myself a major ache in my head and forehead trying to figure things out. I noticed that everything starts and ends with me. I am at the center of everything. I am holding me from receiving what I feel I am deserving of? I am stopping my own self because God and the universe is ready. I am in MY way! I want my actual reality to be the reality that I visualize my reality to be. I have to fight fear. I have to fight!

6 thoughts on “Fear is ok”

  1. That is powerful! I am so happy for you that you have come to that awareness. That was also God that opened your minds eye. We tend to go to him thinking that he isn’t giving us anything or isn’t answering us. When for a fact he has and we just haven’t looked down at what we have been given.i have also being made aware that I am my own problem. Now I know I am more aware than I ever was. It’s amazing not to be blind isnt it? Our minds eyes were closed but now we can see. ๐Ÿ˜ I am truly happy for you. Keep going. The loser is you is a winner soon to be๐Ÿ’ฏ๐Ÿ’ฏ

    1. Yes it’s so amazing ๐Ÿฅฐ I had came to the realization that I was in my own way. It was because of me that I was not growing. I’m still learning to think positively alot more and move out of my own way. It’s hard but I’m trying ๐Ÿ’ฏ and thank you for taking your time out to read this. I appreciate it

      1. It helps you consume positive things. Reading books about self growth Robin sherma is a good one..keeping close to the word of God aswell. Taking him with you because he is always with you through it all. Watching sermons aswell and generally spending time in his presence reading his words aswell. It’s a long process you’ve already started there’s going to be a lot of old habits which you would need to unlearn and in the space of those old habits you create space for him and for positive energy. You are what you speak. Make space for it and you will see this time next year you will be a different person.

      2. I can’t even focus on anything for a long time because my mind starts to wander. I do alot of meditation listening to things as I sleep though. I see that I absorb more information when I play an audio. I’ve ordered cbd oil to help with things. I was given the thought so i’m following it ๐Ÿ’œ

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